Day 39

So I have saved one of my hardest praises for the near end. I have known that I needed to praise God for this and I have tried many times and just couldn't do it, so here it goes.....I praise God for my job. I praise God for my co-workers, I praise God for shift work, and for the pay cheque. Most days I go to work because I have to, because it pays the bills, because I don't have any other options. But I never go to work because I love my job, which just isn't right. The worst part is I can't even fake it, and as hard as I try to be positive and not mumble and grumble, the negativity just seems to slip out, alot. This is not what I want, I want to go to work because I love my job, because I love my co-workers, my boss. I want to be happy when I am there and make other people happy as well. I don't know why I am not happy at work, I have been so blessed with a decent paying job that enables me to be a single mom and still pay the bills. Maybe because I am not free there. Maybe because it doesn't feel like I am doing God's will, maybe it's because it is too early in the morning :) I do know that someday when I am able to, I want to go into full time ministry of some sort, (missions maybe) that is my dream, and my dream will come true. So now I have to pray for God to help me to be happy at work and where he has me right now.